matrix time

It seems like an eternity since I wrote last. I understand that my spelling was a little worrisome after surgery but I was working with a smaller keyboard and a significant amount of drugs in my system. All very good excuses for a decoding nightmare! Not to mention brain surgery itself.

Recovery has been more challenging than I had thought it would be. I was told it wasn’t that painful of a surgery but I beg to differ.it was highly painful and still is. Between the drugs for swelling, anti seizure meds, the narcotics and  the anti nauseant I am having to take, I have some stuff going on in my body. Pain is a constant companion that will not be shaken. It’s messing with my head too.

The one thing I didn’t see coming was the complete stopping or reversal of time. If you’ve seen the Matrix movies it is horrifyingly accurate. I wake up thinking it is a totally different time of the day. I’m not just talking being disoriented. I’m talking completely different time zone. It’s disconcerting. Now all I need are the groovy moves and a cool long coat. Living the Matrix baby!

I am seeing improvements though. I am able to get up and dressed, appreciate the moments with my kiddos and the small time alone with my man. I am holding conversations with friends and keeping track of life logistics now and again. I’m even blogging. Weee hoo!

I am looking forward to less pain. Time and healing will help. I am looking forward to throwing a party to celebrate the victories and miracles and shaving some heads. eating brain cake will be fun too. We’ll celebrate with expectancy what God will do through treatments. 

Tomorrow we enter another phase. I will get fitted for my superhero radiation mask and with that streak into the treatment zone.
I’ll be posting pics if I can. 

Until I return. Sleep well!

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