So much about life is temporal. Just when you think you know what you are doing, life does an about-face and you must learn how to deal with whatever it is this time that life has thrown a curveball into.
Just when I thought I’d gotten the inspiration to exercise tucked in close to my heart, it went and changed its mind. Motivation is a tricky little beast! Why can’t I seem to want to get on the ol’ elliptical like I would get out there and run, back in the summer? I mean, I was not eager, per se , but I went and I did it even if I wasn’t 100%. I think it was the sun or the warmth or getting out of the house for a little while. Those are all motivations for me. It worked. I progressed more than I had thought possible and ran that 5 km. I didn’t run it well, but I did it.
Now, why oh why can’t I just get on that elliptical beast? I was intent on keeping my muscles that I had built over summer I was fierce about fostering my endurance. I was also determined to keep the kinks out.
Then two bouts with the flu happened this fall. Homeschooling the older kiddos got distracting. Then there is the weather. I could call them all excuses but I won’t. I’ll just call them “life”. A big part of my life is the Chronic Pain, but that is getting better little by little. Fatigue has been one of the sneaky fellows that comes and drags me down when I least expect. When living with Chronic illness, life really can do a 180 and you need to adjust expectations.
Obviously “life” and I have a few things to negotiate. Since aging and muscle strength are both telling me I better get back in line, I should probably listen.
My new challenge is doing something I hate INDOORS. I can neither get out to “enjoy” the weather (as cold temperature is painful and roads that are slippery are not cool with me) I need to embrace the indoor exercise that I can do. I should probably look at it as a possible gym class for my Home Schooled kids.
Enter in responsibility. I have the responsibility to myself, to God and to my family to keep the mobility I gained last spring/summer. I don’t want to go back now.
I learned this summer that I need to do a few things to make myself more apt to succeed. The right gear, the right timing and let my body tell me when it’s one of those days I truly shouldn’t push it. The trick is to push my body when I can!
My basement is cold (remember I hate cold) and since it is where we have room and the equipment, I need the right clothes to deal with that. If I’m not too cold, I’m good.
I need the right music. I’ve downloaded some better running/exercising music.
Most of all I need God. I need to let God be a part of the inspiration to get back into a healthier lifestyle. He has been silently cheering me on and I can’t let my best cheerleader down! I know he will give me strength. I’m not that far away from the discipline and positive effects of running that I’ve put the memories of the accomplishment in the past. It must become my present as well as future goal.
My plan is to stay healthy enough to bounce back into running when spring commences it’s lovely season. There are a couple of things that could change my plans like…. a probable rotator cuff injury or a significant injury to the area that might need to be dealt with…but I will continue to think of how I can keep myself in a state of health that keeps me going. We’ll work with whatever life throws at us. “God is our refuge and strength very present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1
Who is in to run with me in something local? I don’t want to do the cold and muddy one, but I would like to do something in the spring. Ideas are welcome!