It’s that seemingly endless part of looking ahead to something and wishing it were now. Whether looking ahead to an exciting event, or waiting to receive news you don’t really want to get…well, it’s all waiting.
My dear husband and I have waited on the Lord for direction. We have pursued the direction we think we are to go but three specific times we’ve gotten a resounding “NO, not yet”. It hasn’t just been a “Is He saying no or are we just perceiving it as a no?” Very specifically and uniquely the answer has been a “NO.”
so then, in our waiting, do we go ahead and think that God is just saying no in those specific examples? Or is he saying No over all? Do we step ahead in the general task or do we stop all forward direction?
Waiting is so hard.
We waited so incredibly long when we were trying to have children. Seven years! We waited and pleaded for seven years. And you know what? At the end of our waiting we KNEW that our little son was the one that we were waiting for. The direction to have children was not a NO answer, it was a WAIT answer. And it was worth the wait.
I have waited for healing too. Waiting and laying in bed. Oh, it’s driven me almost mad. Why does he tarry? Why does he let me just lay here when I could be doing “so much” for his kingdom?
In all actuality, I know why we are waiting in a few different areas of life. WE are not ready yet. There is still more to do here, right where we are. Our hearts and our spirits are in the process of being molded and shaped for whatever he has next.
But in the waiting, we are where he wants us. Ready, willing, still, listening, watching, trusting.
With my face on the ground and my hands lifted up I accept the waiting.
Lord, in the waiting, change me and make me ready for your direction. Whatever it is.